Thursday, March 18, 2010

Giving Number Three Some Attention

I've been in Florida this past week.  I should be soaking up the rays from the sun but the windy temps have kept me working away at my laptop in the confines of my hotel room.  I've ventured out for meals and post-dinner exploring with H, but not much else. 

If it sounds like a drag it isn't. I'm reveling in the fact that I can get this much work done.  I'm booked for trips through April now and I feel alive again.  I feel like Vicky and not a drone.  I've accomplished tasks and feel like my brain is no longer mush.  On my jaunts out for lunch and dinner I've tasted some amazing food at local venues (quiche to die for and a chocolate cake that made me smile for almost an hour straight) and enjoyed the warmer temps and ability to wear wedge heels without chasing a tiny being around and breaking a cankle. 

It goes beyond saying that H and I have had full conversations, discussed the girls in-depth and felt like we were dating again.  We needed that. I needed that.  I've missed him more than I even realized.  The break from the norm, the routine, the household duties, the childcare and just all of it has enabled me to focus on this pregnancy too.  It almost (I said, almost.) makes me tear up when I think about how little time I've devoted to just rubbing my belly and thinking about this next baby.  I've bought nice clothes to celebrate how I look this week and concentrated on rest and eating good food.  I'm doing what I need and what I allowed myself to do with both girls.  Something I haven't had the luxury of this time around.  I want this baby to feel wanted even if it didn't start out that way (Ok, forget almost.).  In a few weeks we will find out if it is a boy or girl.  The talk of names can truly begin and maybe then I will be able to fully own this pregnancy and not think of it as a back-burner, mark on the calendar thing on my to-do list.

I hope this feeling will last. 

2 comments:

  1. So happy for this time away for you!!! (and insanely jealous). I'm glad your spirits are lifting!!!

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  2. So glad this week away has been so beneficial for you. You deserve it, my friend.

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